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Archive for October, 2011

One of the hardest things of my life was to accept the fact that I was raging alcoholic. I steered clear of any form of addiction all my life. Even though I abstained from alcohol I could not find peace from my inner turmoil. When I could not find any reprieve or manifest peace in my life I resorted to alcohol. Looking back I realized I never loved my life and everything that life had to offer. I was a loner, unsatisfied with life, disgruntled with people around me and before I knew I became a raging alcoholic. I was completely addicted to the substance; it made me feel alive and energetic. It gave me the much needed reprieve from the real world Drinking was lifeblood for me for a very long time. But it gave only temporary relief and I would again get submerged in depression and misery. Now I realize I never wanted to face life so I never allowed myself to feel anything. I isolated myself from the world and closed all the doors that showed any hope of happiness. After many failed attempts in rehab, I stayed in a health care reform centre. After several months of constant effort from the rehab professional and the dedication on my side I was able to leave my horrific past and break free from substance abuse. I lead a new life now, and appreciate all the beauty of life. Alcoholism recovery was not an easy task, but with strong will power any one can break free of addiction.